Angel's Thoughts: My time Waisted
So I move to Seattle from Utah whi...: My time Waisted So I move to Seattle from Utah which was very hard to leave family and friends. I did It all to be healthy asthma wise...
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
My time Waisted
So I move to Seattle from Utah which was very hard to leave family and friends. I did It all to be healthy asthma wise and help my brother understand life goes goes care about yourself and to be a family again. Well that worked not. My brother is drunk and mean at times but now with him sober he is an utter ass. I hate him, he said when we were kids he couldn't stand me well i should have told the Truth lived with grandma and gone to collage and be a dance with a masters in English and accounting and dance or even be a teacher for a high school. none of that happened because mt parents were selfish and thought if i kept my mouth shut dad wouldn't hurt them i was wrong because he did anyway. My first marriage a disaster of the 20's and my 2nd marriage is very good but very hard worth it don't get me wrong i love Cameron but he doesn't stand up for me so i live every nightmare again alone just like before. god if your watching or reading rather what the hell did i do that was so bad that i have to live like this again. God i am afraid of my own shadow. i hate myself cause i cant work and the ssdi is taking a dick year to happen what the hell really god do i have to beg for something good to happen.
End of Rant #1
More to come when i can see the dam keyboard.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Angel's Thoughts: So this is April 2013
Angel's Thoughts: So this is April 2013: 4/18/13 So this April huh i really hoped things would slow down this month, they didn't. Life is funny we think okay I'm cool the...
So this is April 2013
4/18/13
So this April huh i really hoped things would slow down this month, they didn't. Life is funny we think okay I'm cool then the ego checks in and we say i got this. Then we get that reminder "watch your P's and Q's" . Funny i heard that my whole life.
April is a funny month cold and warm and flowers bloom and sneezes start. we expect April Showers for Mays flowers and then we know ourselves we have passed the month and now we ourselves grow like a rose frozen from the storms.
This is just the start I think adults learn more in this state than any other, we learn as children but are limited and now as adults we understand a lot more and to move on we learn bigger, better and faster; at least we better
Enjoy the rest of your April.
Angel's Thoughts
Angel_WhatIThink@Blogspot.coom
So this April huh i really hoped things would slow down this month, they didn't. Life is funny we think okay I'm cool then the ego checks in and we say i got this. Then we get that reminder "watch your P's and Q's" . Funny i heard that my whole life.
April is a funny month cold and warm and flowers bloom and sneezes start. we expect April Showers for Mays flowers and then we know ourselves we have passed the month and now we ourselves grow like a rose frozen from the storms.
This is just the start I think adults learn more in this state than any other, we learn as children but are limited and now as adults we understand a lot more and to move on we learn bigger, better and faster; at least we better
Enjoy the rest of your April.
Angel's Thoughts
Angel_WhatIThink@Blogspot.coom
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Addiction in the dark of ones mind
September 16, 2012
Addiction in the dark of ones mind..........
when we shovel substances into our gullet we take the risk of become the addict. This can happen with TV, with Radio, computers, food, hording, being alone, alcohol, drugs, and even abuse. How many of us have one or more from this list? think about it....
Can you go a month with no TV?
Can you go a year with no Computer?
Can you never hoard again?
Can you quit drinking or doing drug by a snap of your finger?
Really? Look at it?
This is a very dark place none or very few of us choose to explore. It is a maze of wonderment a labyrinth of scare and can scar and tare at us all. The addict is never alone because we are born into families and the addiction happens to us all.
My brother is an addict, I am an addict, my husband an addict. We feel each others pain and now we feel each others happy. I say turn on the lights people quit judging and help those who cant help themselves or don't know how to help themselves.
It is not by no means simple it is hard I wish you luck I wish my brother luck as i hold his hand and help him turn the light on, because i love him.
Goodnight, Good day, and god Bless!
Addiction in the dark of ones mind..........
when we shovel substances into our gullet we take the risk of become the addict. This can happen with TV, with Radio, computers, food, hording, being alone, alcohol, drugs, and even abuse. How many of us have one or more from this list? think about it....
Can you go a month with no TV?
Can you go a year with no Computer?
Can you never hoard again?
Can you quit drinking or doing drug by a snap of your finger?
Really? Look at it?
This is a very dark place none or very few of us choose to explore. It is a maze of wonderment a labyrinth of scare and can scar and tare at us all. The addict is never alone because we are born into families and the addiction happens to us all.
My brother is an addict, I am an addict, my husband an addict. We feel each others pain and now we feel each others happy. I say turn on the lights people quit judging and help those who cant help themselves or don't know how to help themselves.
It is not by no means simple it is hard I wish you luck I wish my brother luck as i hold his hand and help him turn the light on, because i love him.
Goodnight, Good day, and god Bless!
For the night is dark among the bright stars;
september 16, 2012
This month has been a learning experience for my family. David is ill with a bacteria infection in his joints. He has had 3 surgeries and a draining for his shoulder. All of that yuck from a cat scratch and dirt.
I will be 42 this month as a matter of fact it will be in 2 days and all i can think of is David how can we spend my birthday with David. I miss him He has been in the hospital for 10 days, my poor brother. (10 days sober and not by choice)
My Prince he is fighting galliently by my side fighting away the bad and bringing in the good. With his talent for faith and his need for the preistood keys at ready form we are truely blessed in this home.
This month has been a learning experience for my family. David is ill with a bacteria infection in his joints. He has had 3 surgeries and a draining for his shoulder. All of that yuck from a cat scratch and dirt.
I will be 42 this month as a matter of fact it will be in 2 days and all i can think of is David how can we spend my birthday with David. I miss him He has been in the hospital for 10 days, my poor brother. (10 days sober and not by choice)
My Prince he is fighting galliently by my side fighting away the bad and bringing in the good. With his talent for faith and his need for the preistood keys at ready form we are truely blessed in this home.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Today being May, 7, 2012:
With a summer coming up, Mother's day and Fathers Day too.
It is time for being grateful for the Mom that I have. Lorraine Springer Christensen was the best mom ever she taught me well and Loved me well too. She showed me and my brother to, to love and appreciate the small because when the small things continue you have a whole lot of good within and without you. Everywhere I go I know my mom is watching us from up above loving us and looking upon our lives and intervening where she can.
Happy Mother's Day Lorraine (mommy) I am proud to be your daughter.
With a summer coming up, Mother's day and Fathers Day too.
It is time for being grateful for the Mom that I have. Lorraine Springer Christensen was the best mom ever she taught me well and Loved me well too. She showed me and my brother to, to love and appreciate the small because when the small things continue you have a whole lot of good within and without you. Everywhere I go I know my mom is watching us from up above loving us and looking upon our lives and intervening where she can.
Happy Mother's Day Lorraine (mommy) I am proud to be your daughter.
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